向日葵 盛放~~

在飞机上又看了一遍我最喜欢的电影，Stardust。无论多少遍，我还是喜欢这个片断。对我来说，这就是the most touching words that I ever heard．

 

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Yvaine: You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

元宵节，中国时间的凌晨6点，无比清醒得醒来。我不知道这是算倒时差成功呢还是失败。3个小时的睡眠让我成功在中国时间的早晨醒来，应该算是成功了吧～

 

在飞机上不眠不休得看电影打游戏，困顿得人像一头大象，连情绪都放缓，所有的情绪都抵不上洗个热水澡的冲动。看到monkey在JFK机场抽空写得博文，原来这孩子离别的情绪比我还重。M说一旦踏上中国的土地，什么离别的情绪都立马被代替。但是当我想放声歌唱，却找不到一首合适的歌，celebrate的歌。我还不断哼着在机场听得那首曲子，以及在培训时最令人想dancing的歌。

 

But I am still officialy back~

 

 

因为Beyonce的这首歌，我在机场的侯机厅舒服得倦在椅子上，迟迟不肯去check in，结果没有好位子坐了。。。。。

 

 

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I'd roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go

Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wated
And I'd never get confronted for it.
Cause they'd stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man.
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I could turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleepin' alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waitin' for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man.
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
Yeah you don't understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you're just a boy

超重的行李，连续2周的缺乏睡眠，带着恋恋不舍和些许遗憾，踏上了回国的旅程。坐在机场的麦当劳大厅里，还在想着最后一次怎样在机场免税店疯狂采购。昨天的TG5 Reivew之后，紧张的节奏突然放松下来，这时才发现，不知不觉4周的bootcamp就这样结束了。workday的从早到晚的忙碌，class， workshop，website buidling， 时间飞速晃过。短暂的周末，满满的行程，纽约之旅（twice），community service， outlet shopping, 日子真的是很满满的度过。我喜欢这种节奏，work hard, play harder. 我们可以在training room coding到凌晨，也同样在pub玩到深夜。而且，很难得的，我从一个ping pang白痴，迅速进化到偶尔也能打一两个好球了。 ^_^

 

And，昨天的最后的pub疯狂，也意外得发现原来我打snooker也还是有一点点天分滴～～～～（小自得一下）

 

真的很珍惜这个难得的机会，能和这么多志同道合的同龄人一起分享这短短的4周。想一想，下次再见面就是一年之后，然后能再相聚的机会真的很少了。从这些很优秀的人身上，我很清晰的看到自己的不足的地方，很明确我应该怎样的发展。每周一次的Peer feedback让我对自己的strength 和need to improvement越来越清晰。

 

决定去improve自己的生活方式，让生活更精彩一点。拉丁是一定要的，ping pang要继续努力，regular的work out，多去尝试新鲜的事物，拓展视野，Business的acumen的培养。感觉自己像是一个只是寻求饱腹的人，在品尝到精致的大餐后，欲罢不能，继续寻求这种精致和精彩，已经远远不能满足只是饱腹。

 

So this is not a end, it is anther beginning, better life, better work~ 

 

Be the man live for work~ and enjoy the colorful life~